Lost in the poetry of the moment. Embracing the thrill of being alive, imprefections and all. I may be and while I am I am going to live as much as I can. Striving Vitae Supremae ad Infinium.
I feel the notes of the pattern flow over and through me. Floating on a stream, looking out at the heavens...not knowing where the current is taking me. Only know it is inevitable and I might as well enjoy the ride.
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Today
Today was a good day.
it had its flaws, just as I do. I did get to see my son for the first time in over a month. The money i spent repairing my car, and the stress of driving melted on seeing him. He stared at me with his intense gaze. I could do nothing but return it for a while. I also had one of the more pleasant times with my sons mother in a long while. We did not talk much, but we did play video games together while our son slept. I felt perhaps we can come together despite our differences to raise him to the best of our abilities. We have both moved on, but we are still bonded though him. However on the way back my car broke down, do i had it towed back to the shop, i got it from on tuesday..hopefully to not grim report. That aside was a fruitful day. I was inspired at circus practice with some ideas. then I saw a young man full of vim, at the CCC, with an agenda for action. No regrets, of life of change on your terms. I did not agree with all of this brash young mans idealism. i was moved by his conviction, or his front for it at least.
A brief talk with my friend, and future roommate was clarifying. Then I decided at the last minute to go see the midnight showing of the watchmen despite my misgiving. I am still letting it settle in...but as of now..having not read the comics.
I really enjoyed it. Was not rushed, had depth, did not pull punches figuratively or literally. Made me think... as well to do it aesthetically profound manner.
Was very much like the review i had read before viewing...a blend of and art his flick and a hero drama.
I still remain with out a gainful employer, but things will resolve them selves as they will.
I stand on the abyss of nothingness every moment of life. An eternity of silence. Worrying over much about a few trifless of logistics is of waste of the little time I have in what makes up my life..
it had its flaws, just as I do. I did get to see my son for the first time in over a month. The money i spent repairing my car, and the stress of driving melted on seeing him. He stared at me with his intense gaze. I could do nothing but return it for a while. I also had one of the more pleasant times with my sons mother in a long while. We did not talk much, but we did play video games together while our son slept. I felt perhaps we can come together despite our differences to raise him to the best of our abilities. We have both moved on, but we are still bonded though him. However on the way back my car broke down, do i had it towed back to the shop, i got it from on tuesday..hopefully to not grim report. That aside was a fruitful day. I was inspired at circus practice with some ideas. then I saw a young man full of vim, at the CCC, with an agenda for action. No regrets, of life of change on your terms. I did not agree with all of this brash young mans idealism. i was moved by his conviction, or his front for it at least.
A brief talk with my friend, and future roommate was clarifying. Then I decided at the last minute to go see the midnight showing of the watchmen despite my misgiving. I am still letting it settle in...but as of now..having not read the comics.
I really enjoyed it. Was not rushed, had depth, did not pull punches figuratively or literally. Made me think... as well to do it aesthetically profound manner.
Was very much like the review i had read before viewing...a blend of and art his flick and a hero drama.
I still remain with out a gainful employer, but things will resolve them selves as they will.
I stand on the abyss of nothingness every moment of life. An eternity of silence. Worrying over much about a few trifless of logistics is of waste of the little time I have in what makes up my life..
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Inspired
I have been feeling better lately. My car is seemingly fixed now. I got my hair trimmed to look a bit more employable.
Most importantly I went with my brother and his girlfriend to see Saul Williams at UWM. I have liked his work for almost ten years. I do not often get to seem many of my inspirations in person. Over the last years even more so i have been turnig to some of his work to keep me in focus.
The most important point I think he made in his talk was about the strength of being venerable. Specifically he was talking about back after 911 when Bush was coming out saying we will never be venerable again. He said how that made him stop and think, about how under respected the strength of being flexible is.
In a car crash the drunk who was driving, is relaxed and is unhurt while the other driver who tenses up trying to brace for impact breaks every bone in his body. Same is true for skateboarders, a tree in a storm. The power of being giving and not just trying to be strong against everything all the time. The power of the river, and winds slowly wearing down the stone.
Reminds me to not be so serious and uptight. Not to abandon standing up for things, but not trying to be stronger then you are, and not standing in front of that which cannot be stopped. Rather embracing it, and redirecting it as best you can.
I have a lot more to say about this but want to keep it short for now. I wanted to update this before i forget the essence of it.
Any way off to shower and shave then off to my job interview wish me luck.
Most importantly I went with my brother and his girlfriend to see Saul Williams at UWM. I have liked his work for almost ten years. I do not often get to seem many of my inspirations in person. Over the last years even more so i have been turnig to some of his work to keep me in focus.
The most important point I think he made in his talk was about the strength of being venerable. Specifically he was talking about back after 911 when Bush was coming out saying we will never be venerable again. He said how that made him stop and think, about how under respected the strength of being flexible is.
In a car crash the drunk who was driving, is relaxed and is unhurt while the other driver who tenses up trying to brace for impact breaks every bone in his body. Same is true for skateboarders, a tree in a storm. The power of being giving and not just trying to be strong against everything all the time. The power of the river, and winds slowly wearing down the stone.
Reminds me to not be so serious and uptight. Not to abandon standing up for things, but not trying to be stronger then you are, and not standing in front of that which cannot be stopped. Rather embracing it, and redirecting it as best you can.
I have a lot more to say about this but want to keep it short for now. I wanted to update this before i forget the essence of it.
Any way off to shower and shave then off to my job interview wish me luck.
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A few Hours
Only a few hours until I see my son again, this time introducing him to my family, well most of them my two oldest younger brothers can not make it but the rest will be there. I only slept for 3-4 hours and had to get up. I was tossing and turning thinking about it.
I am very much looking forward to today
I am very much looking forward to today
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